Well hello again people of the inter-webs,
I’ve been struggling to gather my thoughts coherently enough to write. I’d really like to write more often in this blog but I have worried about the content. I don’t really have one particular topic I want to write about, and with blogs, from what I understand, it is best to have a focus.
And really, how much should I share about the intimate details of my life, my family, and everything that we do. I could risk my children’s safety accidentally by revealing too much about us. I know that predators are out there – a twelve-year-old version of me could tell you about being groomed, nearly kidnapped, and dealing with police when things got too far out of hand.
What’s more, do I really want strangers stumbling across the things I say and making judgments about me based on the things that get scrawled out? Or worse… what if the people I feel closest to read the things I’ve written and decide that I am abhorrent. Just because the psychologist I have been seeing acts as though the things I deal with daily are normal doesn’t mean that others will understand.
I’ve decided to just go for it. Worst case scenario I open myself up to haters and deal with their hate and abuse – it’s not like it’s the first time I’ve ever dealt with abuse in my life and it definitely won’t be the last. So, welcome to my not really first yet now officially first post as I’ve gone through and deleted everything previous to this post that is remotely journal-like. Or at least I believe I have… perhaps I’ll be surprised somewhere down the line.